Aug. 6, 2011 Journal entry as God spoke to my heart–But now O Eva, listen to the LORD who created you, My daughter. The One who formed you says, “Don’t be afraid for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name, you are Mine. When you go through the waters I will be with you. When you go through the rivers of difficult you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up (the flames will not consume you). For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. You have chosen to know me–believe in me and understand that I am God alone–there is no other.
No one can snatch you out of my hand, no one can undo what I have done. I am the LORD your Holy One. What is done in the past is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. Listen to me, Eva, my servant, my chosen one. The LORD who made you and helps you says, “Do not be afraid.” I will pour out my Spirit on your descendants, my blessing on your children. They thrive like the watered grass.
My response according to God’s own Word–You LORD have established us and explained our future. We will not tremble, we will not be afraid for You proclaimed Your purposes for us long ago. We are Your witnesses, there is no other God, no Rock like our God. Thank you LORD, You are mighty to save. Hallelujah!
This is when Mark Jr. had the “flu”, or so we thought. He didn’t want to eat, drink, watch his car shows, throw anything, nothing. He wanted to sleep. We’ve all been there before, so we let him sleep. He slept for three days getting up here and there to use the bathroom and wander around a little. By Monday, he was feeling better but had developed an inconsistent cough. No fever, no runny nose, no mucus but still pretty tired. He didn’t complain and he was getting up more. Just thought this flu knocked the wind out of him.
AUGUST 16 journal entry–5:30 am LORD, I have prayed for You to show me how to help Mark Jr. and now I read in Your Word from Psalm 25, “The Lord is good and does what is right; He shows the proper path. He leads the humble in doing right teaching them His way. The LORD leads with unfailing love and faithfulness all who keep His covenant and obey His commands. Who are those who fear the LORD? He will show them the path they will choose. They will prosper and their children will inherit the land. My eyes are always on the LORD and He rescues me.” And from Ezekiel 12:25, “I AM the LORD. If I say it, it will happen!”
The next week, Mark’s feet began to swell and he was acting winded. I called the doctors office to try to get him in but did not get any calls back. Finally on the next Tuesday the doctor could see Mark. After seeing the doctor, we were told to take Mark to the ER next door. At the ER and an EKG later we were told Mark had a heart attack. Later when the blood work came back, we were told Mark didn’t have a heart attack but could at any moment based on the EKG. The doctor said, “You have a very sick boy.”
I must interject at this time that in the process of drawing blood 4 different times, 4 adults had to hold Mark down in order to get a needle in him. lol Again, this happened 4 times and Mark did not have a heart attack. He did turn a few colors in the process, but no heart attack. IV and foley inserted and meds to remove fluid have begun.
We transferred Mark to a different hospital and after a few humiliating moments (for Mark–the details for the favorite few) Mark was taken to the cardiac ward where MORE blood was taken and 4 more people had to hold him down. By 2:30 or 3 am we finally settled down for a few moments of rest after the usual questions, we slept for about two hours and began more blood draws, tests, meds and questions trying to determine the cause of this problem.
AUGUST 24: 8 am ish–I am so tired I cannot even function. The doctors have come in and told me about a possible blood clot and damage to Marks heart that may or may not recover. This is all due to the “flu” he had previously and they are calling it a Viral blah blah blah itis thing. I recognize the same peace I experienced 4 years ago. Doing a lot of smiling and nodding, but thank God they are not pressuring me to make decisions until I can think clearly. Mark is asleep. When I am tempted to be afraid, I will trust in the LORD.
Evening rounds around 5-6 ish–The doctor said his plan is for Mark to go home on Friday. ???? I’m good with that but some may ask, what has changed? God is in this place. I have asked for prayer from everyone according to Heb 13:5-6 and Isaiah 58:8. The LORD’s hand is not shortened at all, that it cannot save nor His ears dull that they do not hear. Thank you LORD that you guide me.
AUGUST 25 around 5:30 ish am. God is speaking to me through His Word, “Have you not seen? Have you not heard? The everlasting God does not faint or grow weary, there is no searching His understanding. He gives power to the faint and weary and to him who has no might. He increases strength [causing it to multiply and abound.]
PRAYER: Thank you Father. I declare Your Word above all else. You increase Mark’s strength and renew him He will mount up on wings like eagles, he will run and not grow weary, he will walk and not faint or become tired.
GOD’S RESPONSE TO MY PRAYER: But you, Eva whom I have chosen, the offspring of Abraham, my friend, you whom I the LORD have said to you, I have chosen you and I will not cast you off. You are my friend. Do not be afraid [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you. Do not look around you in terror and be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand of righteousness and justice. Behold, those who are inflamed against you will be put to shame and confounded. Those who war against you will be as nothing, nothing at all. For I the LORD you God hold your right hand. I am the LORD who says to you, “Fear not! I will help you!
AUGUST 25–8 ish am–the doctors are making their rounds and again, Mark’s doctor says Mark will go home tomorrow because he has responded so positively to meds and the swelling is almost all gone. Also, they can hear almost no heart arrhythmia (murmur). I have refused one med but ok with the others. One doctor is not happy and trying to cause me to fear by his “possibilities.” But I will not be moved because God said do not fear. Mark is up laughing and walking and eating and enjoying his car magazines Mrs. Collins brought to him.
AUGUST 26 8 am ish–Mark is definitely going home today. Even the one doctor who was so “upset at me” is such a different person today. That’s a God thing. Left thank you notes with all the nurses and Dr. V for their help in Mark’s crisis. From the brink of no return to complete recovery-only God. No doubt in my mind that “by His stripes, Mark IS healed.”